I wanna spend my days in Your presence Lord Bow before your throne In the house of joy is where I've found my peace It's where I've found

My home is heaven, a day Lord I will live In your courts You found me, and I worship at Your feet Hide me now, Lord, in the shadow of Your wings Where I will be, where I will be, where I will be

This song really touched me today :) Thank you God

Reliance

Why is everything so hard these days? Like, so many things are going wrong for me. Things that usually were so great before, are now making my life hard. I guess these hard times bring me to God and to rely on him more? I think it's become like this because I keep telling Him that I'll keep on praying and going to him, but I never keep those promises. So, the only solution was to make me suffer? Haha, I don't really know. But, in a way I'm thankful for these struggles I'm going through, because I'm learning to rely on him even more.

memorial weekend!

okay so today was really tough :(
and whats with this twitter craze LOL?

i joined like 3/4 months ago and its still confusing -__-
but if the hottest celebrities are using it, it should be fun! haha

overloaddddddd
1. Read 6 chapters of Invisible Man
2. Dialecital Journals
3. Current Event Packet
4. Apush Project
5. Psych Project
6. Election Packet/Apush packets

is it possible? i think NOT!

stupidity!

Ok, can I be more stupid? I leave my wallet with my license and id at church in la, and I spent an hour looking for it just now...I'm stupid -__- Now I feel awful, cause of my stupidity, my pastor went all the way to la to retrieve my wallet and give it to my friend to give it to me :(
Aieesh.

Well, Apush is over thank goodness! Now for psych. If I had spent the last 2 months studying ahead of time, I know I would've gotten at least a 4 :( But I'm not sure if I'm gonna even get a 3! Uhoh. It's all up to God now hahaha! Please let me get at least a 3 on both exams pleaseeee

Bipolar Disorder. It really exists right? Cause I seriously think alot of my friends have it! HAHAHA!

I should be studying for psych...
I should be studying for psych...

After Ap's are overrrrrrrrr this is what I'm going to do:
1. Burn my ap books at a bonfire
2. Swimm!
3. SHOPPINGGG
4. Go movie hopping- X-men & Startrek!


okokok bye

burnin' up!

I hate this hot weather :( Its hard to sleep at night cause I'm too busy suffocating! But, I'm happy that I'm tanning my white skin at school though haha. Forsure this weekend if its still hot I'm gonna swim, while studying for Aps :D


1. More white V-necks
2. Eyebrow plucker
3. Shorts
4. Tie-dye kit
5. Swimsuit

I need all of these things, but I got no money :(

There may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning

I don't want to write a long blog, but I just want to say that Spring Break should've been longer it should've been next week. Goodness, how fast it passed by ! It's ridiculous, like seriously ridunkulous!! At least, I had a really nice seventh birthday this year. Got lots of clothes, clothes, clothes, and a new cellphone. And how darn happy I am that I got rid of that horrible, ugly pink razor! You don't know how relieved I am to be rid of that annoying, laggy piece of metal. Oohh and I finally got a haircut, but I don't know if it's gonna be that noticeable. Its 2 inches shorter and I'm liking it :)

Anyhows, I'm really sad that I didn't get to play everyday this spring break. That stupid korean drama Ms. Shin assigned us seriously took up 90% of my vacation. Like seriously, she assigns so much homework over break, but she never even glances at it. She just wants to make our lives miserable.

It's Saturday, which means that my parents are leaving for Korea tonight, for an entire week!
I'm seriously really sad. I'm gonna miss my mommy and daddy :( But, at the same time, I'm excited too because my grandparents are gonna stay over this week and they're seriously sooo sweet! Esp. my grandma, I love her! I guess it'll help me and my korean communication skills this week! Let's see how much of an epic failure that will be! Since my parents are gonna be gone, Erin's gonna sleepover this week! Excited for college tours, 17 again with Zac Efron. What a hunk of man meat he is!

I didn't forget that this week was Suffering Week. So, I chose to fast breakfast so that I can spend time in prayer and read the Bible. Suprisingly, it was a success! I really can't read the bible in the morning, but somehow I was able to.

I really don't know how I'm going to survive this week, but I'm leaving it all up to God's hands. Take care of me pleaseeee.

Come be the flame upon my heart

Okay, I thought it was time for a new post. This blogspot thingamajigger is confusing. Anywhos I'm so dang glad that this week is the last week of school before spring break! WOOO.Which means, I should do really well on all my tests this week, so I won't get guilt trips during my vacation! I'm so excited for my birthday and college tours! Hopefully my birthday this year won't be such a drab like last year...

Anyways, I just realized last night that I have not been praying at all. Oh my god, what is seriously wrong with me? Am I too lazy, or do I not really care if God blesses me or not anymore? I remember last year I used to pray for like 10 min every night, now it's a once in a while "ThankyouGodforthiswonderfulday,Amen." prayer. I knowww, that's really bad. But, I'm going to change my ways now and I actually read the word today :) I guess, I'm just really dry, but I do yearn for that burning fire in my heart again. Prayer REALLY works and brings miracles into your life. How can you receive if you don't ask? How can anyone have that hunger and thirst for the Lord, if you don't plead? So, Lord, come be that flame in my heart once again.

Time is such a precious thing

A Time machine. What I would do to get one.
It was hitting me hard all this week about how much I wish I could just get into a time machine, rewind everything, and do everything differently. I remember saying in the beginning of high school, "I don't want to live a life of regrets." So sad how I didn't abide to that. I wish I studied hard in freshman year, if I did, I could've been in IB right now. I wish I hadn't taken sophomore year oh so lightly and felt so apathetic about my grades. I wish I had studied my butt off this past 1st semester and gotten a 4.0. Regrets...I really do despise that word. College is so hard to get into these days. My heart's desire really is to get into UCSD and major in psychology. I'm taking Ap Psychology right now, and that's forsure one thing I don't regret taking. Plus, who doesn't want a high-paying job? :) I know that's what I really want to do. I just hope that God sees my passion and improved attitude about school, so hopefully the rest will fall into place.

Oh well, I just hope starting from now that regrets won't play any portion of my future days to come. Time really is such a precious thing. Amongst your life, you sometimes lose yourself and forget to look after yourself.

family reunions

I love blogging !

I also absolutley love family reunions. I just finished cleaning the entire house because my cousins from korea and my mom's side of the family are coming over in a couple of hours. Who doesn't enjoy the family atmosphere when all of your cousins, aunts, and grandparents gather together to get obese off of the best korean food ever? No one.

It finally hit me in the head today about how truly blessed I am to have an amazing mom like mine. I feel like such a terrible daughter, taking my mom for granted all the time. What would I seriously do without her? She is definitely the best friend I will ever ask for.

More blogging later!